Forgiving myself forgiving my abusers.. Childhood sexual abuse awareness month

I have never made a secret about my abuse as a child, it is nothing I have to be ashamed of, despite my upbringing of secrecy. Please don't misunderstand me, there were plenty of years that I felt shame and humiliation for the things I went through. Times I believed that it was my fault, if I didn't bloom so early, if my boobs weren't so big, if I didn't this, or hadn't that. I spent so much time replaying the abuse in my head and in some instances still dealing with it in my everyday long into … [Read more...]

When is it going to stop?? Child abuse and sexual assault

I have made no secret that I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse. I choose not to perpetuate the stigma and the secret that gives that abuse life long power. What I do know is only one of my perpetrators was a non family member. ONE. Out of 6 in my lifetime from age of 4 upwards. Did you just stop there and re-read that. I said 4. So today when I learned of another abuse case by a family member on a child, I was heartbroken.* I must say this abuse did not occur in my family.It was not even … [Read more...]

Writer’s Workshop with Mama Kat….labeled as a child?

This week I chose the writing prompt at the top. I want this post to link up for October National Child abuse Prevention as well...What was I labeled as a child and how did it affect my life?I was labeled a lot of things, cute, the singer, the baby, too many to list. But the one that had the greatest affect was victim. Victim to the twisted mind of adult males in my family who decided I was old enough to understand adult things. Taking things they should not have even thought of taking. Like my … [Read more...]